Friday, June 17, 2011

Just Let me Help You

Many times the Lord speaks to me through one of my moments with a child. As I was sitting on a chair in the frame of the door of the potty I had such a moment. One of the children was finishing and was having trouble buttoning his pants. It was the kind of button that has to be pushed through a hole so it's difficult. He was struggling so I said, "Come here and I'll help you." Being a typical toddler he ignored me and kept on with the struggle. I said again, "Let me help you." Again he ignored me and started to get very frustrated. I was thinking if he'd just let me help him it would be done in seconds and he could go on and play. But instead he kept ignoring me until finally he was almost near tears. Finally he came over and let me help him.

During this whole ordeal the Lord was speaking to my heart. How many times have I been like that little child? How many times have I struggled in trying to do something without God? How many times have I thought, I can do it! I don't need Your help.
I realized I have done it more then I would like to admit.
And the whole time God was there saying, Just come over here and let me help you!
But I would continue on. Pushing through my own strength, failing, getting frustrated, until I was crying and calling out to God who picked me up and said, I've been here the whole time to help you. All you needed to do was come over to me.

It reminds me of a poem I heard a long time ago

As children bring their broken toys in tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God, Because he is my friend.
But then instead of leaving him to do His work alone,
I hung around and tried to help in ways that were my own.At last i snatched them back and cried,
"How could you be so slow?" "My child," he said,
"What could I do, you never did let go

Let us always remember that we do not need to do anything on our own or in our own strength. For in our strength we will fail but in Christ we can do all things!

Free from the Performance Trap

Because of the inability to freely receive love and acceptance, we can find ourselves driven to prove our worth, even to God. This will inevitably lead to embracing a false identity based on what we do. Be set free today. There is nothing you can do to earn His love.
If you have children do you expect them to earn your love? NO. You love them because they are yours. You love them when they make bad choices, when they mess up, when they are disobedient, rebellious, or even cause you pain. You never stop loving them. They are your children. Your heart may break for them but you NEVER stop loving them and you give them that love freely.
Then why is it so hard to understand? We are God's children. He LOVES us. And loves us even more then we can ever love. He loves us even when we are disobedient, rebellious, stubborn, make bad choices. He NEVER stops loving us. We can't earn His love. He just loves us because we are His.
We may break His heart but He doesn't ever stop loving us.

So, nothing you do, nothing you say, no matter what you try, nothing will make Him love you more then He already does.

Be set free. HE LOVES YOU! He does not show partiality, or favoritism.
He longs for us to be close to Him just as you would long for your children to be close to you.

Be set free from the performance trap. Be set free from the comparison trap.
Just freely receive His love ♥

WOAH!

Jesus prayed..

And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are one: I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me. - John 17:22-23

WOAH! WOAH! WOAH! Did I read this right??? Jesus said that you may love them as you have loved me? God, the Father loves me as much as Jesus? The same????!!! Jesus is saying the Father loves us as much as Him?
But..Jesus is God's son. Jesus is God. He was perfect, sinless...
and yet He says this...

WOAH!!!! My head is spinning. Overwhelmed!

Power in Praise!

During the Friday night service while I was at a youth convention I saw a young boy who looked like his world had fallen apart. He is 12 years old. He wasn't from my church but I know him from kid's camp. When I asked him what was wrong he told me he had just received word that his grandmother had died. He was very close to his grandmother. So, here he was in Syracuse, miles from his family, and just recieved the news that someone he loved very much had passed away. But yet in his tears and brokeness he pressed through to worship the Lord.
My mind quickly went to Paul and Silas. There they were in that prison cell, in their darkest moment, beaten, bleeding, and near death, and yet they chose to worship. And so, here was my young friend, in his darkest moment, his heart broken and bleeding with pain with this horrible loss, and yet he chose to worship.
No matter what our circumstances are we can always choose to worship. Our God is worthy of praise no matter what is happening around us. Maybe we have lost a loved one, maybe we are near death, maybe we are in a battle, maybe we lost our job, maybe it seems like all hope is lost, but my friends..there is power in praise!
The true victory is in praise and worship. We don't praise because of good things happening to us - we praise because HE IS WORTHY OF PRAISE! It is as simple as that. Yes, we can jump up and down and thank Him for answered prayers and rejoice in moments of happiness but our joy shouldn't be based on our circumstances EVER!
Our joy can not be robbed because it simply comes from knowing Him. Knowing He paid it all! Knowing He won the victory for us! Knowing He loves us with a love that is greater then anything we could ever understand.
My young friend was strengthened, his heart was comforted because he made the best choice. He chose to worship and praise. He chose to look upon Jesus and not his circumstances.
That 12 year old boy is a hero in my eyes and I will not soon forget. When I am tempted to look at my circumstances, when I am tempted to say I am too weak to praise, when I am tempted to be depressed, I will remember him. I will remember that he chose to praise God after receiving the worst news of his life.
And a little child shall lead...

What Would it Look Like?

Lately I have been feeling so convicted of how I spend my time. Then I was thinking, what would it be like? What would it be like if we knew Jesus was coming back in one year? How would that change what we are doing? Would we work harder at knowing God's Word? Would we be more willing to share Christ with a neighbor? Would we be more willing to fast and pray for the lost? What if we knew for sure He was coming back in 6 months, or three? What would that look like in our lives? Would we take every hour we have more seriously? Would we be careful not to waste the time we have with meaningless entertainment or things that have no value in the kingdom of God? Would we be more careful to watch what comes out of our mouths? What would it look like if we knew this was our last day and Jesus was coming back tomorrow? Would we not hesitate to get on our knees and spend time with Him in the secret place? What would that sort of knowledge change in the way we conduct ourselves, would it change what we say, what we watch, how we treat others?
Well, Jesus IS coming back and He is coming back soon. We may not know the day nor the hour but He is coming. It could be in a year, it could be in a few months, or even tomorrow. We do not know....
I keep thinking about the ten foolish virgins that Jesus spoke about. The ones who let their oil run out and missed entering in. Lord, help us not to miss it!
What would it look like if the church started acting like Jesus was coming back tomorrow?
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So you, too, must keep watch! For you do not know the day or hour of my return. - Matthew 25:13

Trust God not Man

One thing I know as I have gotten older is that God will truly never fail me.

I have had best friends but they have failed
I have had relationships but they have failed
I have been in the "inner circle" but it failed
I have had jobs but they failed
I owned a business but it is no more

The one thing that stands out to me is the things of this world will fail. They will pass away. They will fade.
Yet in our humanity we still seek popularity, strive for status and high positions, seek for fame and riches.

But all that will fail, will fade, will come to nothing.

The one thing that brings me comfort is to know that even if there is no one who wants to spend time with me or gets excited to see me, even if there is no one who wants to hear from me or speak with me, or finds any value in me....it doesn't matter!

It doesn't matter because the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, the creator of everything..HE wants to spend time with me. He wants to hear from me. He wants to speak with me. He sees value in me. He has a purpose and a plan for me. He loves me. And HE WILL NEVER FAIL ME!

How incredible it is to know.
In Isaiah 2:22 it says: Don't put your trust in mere humans. They are as fail as breath. What good are they?

It is clear that we are to put our trust in God and God alone. Yet in our humanity we are always wanting to be someone in the eyes of other people. Always seeking to be with those who have some sort of status or popularity. Always trying to please people.

Maybe we should spend more time trying to please God.

Just a thought...

Who's Your Daddy?

Wow! Wow! Wow! That is all I can say when talking about my daddy, my Abba Father!
I have struggled for so long to grasp this unconditional love, this amazing father's love. I have known in my head for ever so long that His love is real and available for me but my heart could not grasp it. My heart was so wounded from so many years of dissapointments and rejection. Never having the example of a father's love in my earthly father it has been so difficult for me. I really need to experience love in tangable ways. I have told this to the Lord so many times and He has answered!
I have been out of work since January 6th and God has constantly provided for my needs. Back in April I put my complete faith in God because I was leaving for convention the next day and I was broke. Our meals were not covered so I prayed - Lord, You are my provider and I put my trust in you! If I need to eat you will provide and if I need to fast you will give me the strength to endure. Thursday when I got to church a parent came up to me and gave me a card. Inside the card was $50! She told me the Lord compelled her to give it. Our God is the bomb.com!! Not only was it more then enough for my meals but I also was able to refill money on my cell phone!! How great is my Father! He provides!
But the best part was this past weekend at convention the Lord healed my heart of every road block that has stood in the way of accepting Him as my Father. That total abandonment. Truly trusting Him in my heart and KNOWING beyond a shadow of a doubt that He really loves me. He loves me just the way that I am. He loves me no matter how many times I fall down. He loves me when I make promises I can't keep. He loves me when I give into my own desires. He comes running the minute I cry out to Him. He has been showing me He will provide, He will take care of me, He is truly the Father to the fatherless!!! He showed me a picture of a baby learning to walk. No matter how many times the baby falls down the parent lovingly helps the child back up and encourages them to try again. God knows I will try and I will fail but He always encourages me to get back up and try again! And He never ever stops loving me no matter how many times I fall!
Oh how I love my daddy! He is making ALL things new! ALL things! All things in my family, in my finances, in my body, in my heart, in my mind, in my relationships with friends. He is delivering me from my addictions, hang ups, habits I can't break but through Him I WILL OVERCOME!
Do you know my daddy? OH HOW HE LOVES ME!!!!
The biggest breakthrough I had this past weekend at convention was truly seeing that He is a personal God. The way He loves me He can love everyone. He is big enough to do that! Perhaps in my heart I put Him in a box, thought maybe He can't love me the way He loves someone else or does He really care about every detail? But HE IS BIG ENOUGH!!! He is big enough and strong enough to let me sit at the table with Him as long as I want and can still do it for thousands of others. He is beyond incredible!
OH how I love my Abba Father!
It is my prayer that you can know Him, too ♥♥♥
Who's your daddy?

The Power of Prayer

think the biggest thing we fight against in America is complacency.
My dictionary defines complacency this way, “self-satisfaction accompanied by unawareness of actual danger or deficiencies”.
satan wants us to be complacent.
We must take a stand for God! ... We have become complacent. ... Our nation does not do the Law of God.

I looked for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand before me in the gap on behalf of the land so I would not have to destroy it, but I found none. - Ezekiel 22:30

Right now, God is searching for people who will be an extension of Himself. He is looking for a people who are willing to stand in the gap before Him on behalf of the Nation.

We need people who are willing to give up their lives to intercede and pray. We must build up the wall of righteousness around this Nation and restore the things of God. God is calling out for His Church to become a house of prayer. We, as the people of God, must respond and devote our lives to intercession and prayer. We can no longer live for ourselves, and allow the house of God to lay in ruins as a result of our unfaithfulness and disinterest in the things of God.

Christianity has lost its power. We have become solely a people of morality. As great and necessary as morality is, it will not change the Nation. We need to become a people known for more than our morality; we need to become a people identified by the presence and power of God. We so desperately need to have God’s presence and power in our midst and in us. We must give the world what they do not have.

How do we get more of the presence and power of God? It is by prayer and intercession that God’s presence and power increases. It is vital that we, as believers, learn to pray and intercede for the Church, the Nation, and the overall increase of the power and presence of God.

If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land. - 2 Chronicles 7:14

God is still calling out for His people to pray and seek His face, and He remains faithful to His promise even now, if we choose to respond. Will you respond to the call to stand in the gap and bring healing to the Nation?

Amazing Love ♥

But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. - Romans 5:8

God is Love, and His love is very different from human love. God's love is unconditional, and it's not based on feelings or emotions. He doesn't love us because we're lovable or because we make Him feel good; He loves us because He is love. We didn't have to get clean, and we didn't have to make any promises to God before we could experience His love. His love for us has always existed, and because of that, He did all the giving and sacrificing long before we were even aware that we needed His love.

Amazing love, how can it be
That you My king would die for me
Amazing love, I know it's true
It's my joy to honor you
In all I do I honor you

I have such a struggle and difficult time understanding this sort of love. I have an even harder time receiving it. My whole life I have been programed to believe love must be earned. If I worked hard enough or was perfect enough then maybe I would be accepted. And even then there were times I wasn't..
Unconditional love - it's like a foreign language. So strange and unfamiliar. It's hard to accept someone could love me that way. Especially when I can't even love myself that way. But how amazing. God loves me when I fail. He loves me when I succeed. He loves me even when I push Him away or ignore Him. He comes running with excitement when I come back. He loves me enough to correct me, to discipline me, to guide me, to protect me. He loves me through my temper tantrums. He loves me no matter what I look like, sound like. No matter what I do, think, or say - He loves me!!!

I saw an example of this once. A little girl at my church came running in to see her dad. She was a little sad because she had gotten into trouble at school. Her dad spoke softly to her about doing better and then he swept her off her feet and embraced her. I couldn't help burst into tears. I never experienced that with my own father. It was always criticism and then praise only if I did something right. And never embraced or held.

Maybe that is why I struggle here. I believe in my mind that God's love is real and for me but my heart is guarded and afraid.
But, I must keep telling myself over and over again - I CAN NOT EARN IT!!! He simply loves me JUST BECAUSE. There is nothing I can do or say that will make Him love me more then He already does. And the point is I don't deserve it but He loves me regardless. Christ died for us while we were still sinners. We didn't have to get clean first.

I keep thinking about the story of the prodigal son. The father came running to meet his son and embraced him. Put a ring on his finger, gave him a robe, and threw a party. That is our God! That is our father!!!

Oh Amazing Love!!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

Suddenly I see

Beauty from Ashes

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified. —Isaiah 61:3.

I am sure that there are many ideas about what beauty from ashes is all about but I am just sharing what the Lord ministered to me. ☺

Everyday when I make the exchange I am overwhelmed. All I can give the Lord is my pain, my failures, my hurts, my disappointments, my bitterness, my anger, my loneliness, my unbelief, my anxiety, my fear, my doubts. He takes all that and in exchange He gives me Joy, Peace, Love, Forgiveness, Courage, Protection, Restoration, Healing, Faith, Compassion, Grace, Mercy..
What have I done to deserve it??
NOTHING!
He just freely gives it. He truly takes my ashes and in return gives me beauty.

What an amazing God we serve!!!